Here's my letterIt's all new to me, and i don't know what's wrong.The shaking hands and fast heart beat. Just an attack.Then tingly arms and legs, that i can barely move. "Is this normal?"I'm spinning, but not moving. Bring on the light head.I need to sit down, I feel like I'm going to fall. My back is screaming and sending sharp pains near my kidneys. "What's wrong with me?" The pain moves up, and up, until it reaches my brain. My eyes begin to water. "Okay, now this really hurts"It turns out, no one has a clue what this means. I'm just another patient, nothing to diagnose.Home brings another flaw. Anger.No reason for it, just plain hatred.This is nothing new.Blah, blah, blah, you've heard it all before. "That's it?" You say.It builds, and grows into something that I can't even explain."GO THE **** AWAY" But i could never really say it."I'm okay, i promise" But I'm lying. Every second without an answer, makes its less and less okay.My mind, is a mumbled, jumbled mess.I can't think strai
Goodbye to youIt hurts.. It hurts so bad..My chest, its... I can't breathe. Please... Someone.. Save me.Im being ingulfed with flames, but there is no fire.This burning.. It's unreal, like no other.Make it stop! Please!Im hiding behind false hope, "why did i get myself into this?"Whats that noise? It sounds like thumping.. Its getting louder now, make it stop!Now i cant see, there is a fog. My vision is blurry, "whats wrong with me?"Then i feel the cold droplet run down my cheek. "Oh, i tear"Then more. More and more tears, "Why wont they stop".I can't deal with this anymore.. I need relief, closure..But what? How?"Oh! I know" Is that a smile i feel forming?It's cruel, but i like it..This is my goodbye, goodbye to you.